Aqua65's Blog

Increment ?

aqua65 — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 03:50:19 +0000

It is time to leave . First time , I did not get an increment because of performance . I really did not perform . My attitude stinks !!. Worse , I cannot find the motivation to work in this company . I need a change of scenario

2012

aqua65 — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 04:12:45 +0000

I think this is my first blog for 2012 . A lot of things to write but dont know where to start . But I need to change to lead a better life and take care of my family . Start by first changing the job. This is where all my frustrations start .

Liverpool

aqua65 — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 07:19:56 +0000

Andy Carrol is a waste of money . Thirty three million spent on him is just maddness . Now there is nobody who can score goals for Liverpool . How to survive ?

Horrible year !!!!!

aqua65 — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 01:59:21 +0000

There are 3 deaths in the family . Uncle Richard and Felix is somebody I did not expect to pass away. Worse , I am not going anywhere in my career . My debts have piled up and my relationship with my wife is so bad. Things are really bad . I am addicted to porn now and waste a lot of money .

I need to pray and turn to god . I also need to change jobs to turn to the correct path.

Horrible ?

aqua65 — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 02:16:45 +0000

I feel horrible now . Words cannot describer it . I am not sure what to say Wife and parents not on talking terms . At work under pressure by customers and bosses . No peace of mind . Doing all the rubbish . Worse low self esteem . All my classmates are better than me . ……..!!! Really need to do something .

Shit weekend !!!

aqua65 — Sun, 20 Nov 2011 12:36:34 +0000

Am I too selfish ??? I beat up my wife in front of the kids . It is horrible feeling . But how am I going to live with myself ?

This is horrible !!! I am selfish !!!

Feeling low !

aqua65 — Mon, 07 Nov 2011 01:15:04 +0000

One of my uni mates is a MD of a Bio start up. And he seems to be doing so well . Dr. Shermal W Perera is the MD and also a commercializing expert of the company . Everybody in the group has done well except me . I made all the wrong choices in life. This makes me so low . Really engineering is a shit life. How come I turned up so bad ? How can I correct it ? There must be serious soul searching for it to happen . My character is a big flaw. I am too proud . Too boastful. Never seeking the right choices. It is payback time for all the guys I bullied in my life before . I am ashamed . I have to repent .

Humiliated !!!

aqua65 — Sun, 06 Nov 2011 14:57:05 +0000

On Saturday 5^th of November 2011 I was humiliated in front of my team . I deserve it . Cindy to call complain nothing is moving in the project . We should have settled this long time ago. Why did I do nothing in the project ? I really don’t understand . Did I think it will solve by itself ? Did I think I can find an alternative job and run away ? This is way too optimistic!!!. Anyhow it was simply stupid . Now I have no credibility in front of my team, company and customer . I have to leave no matter what . This is the bottom line . No point sulking about the boss or poor benefits or lack of motivation . I really did not perform. !

This is my biggest flaw in my character . What can I do to improve ? It has happened several times before . Yes, Jimmy is correct . Over-confidence .

managing ego

aqua65 — Mon, 31 Oct 2011 01:50:41 +0000

Interesting article I readd over the weekend . Where a lady decided to quit her day job so that she did not have to manage her boss ego . In reality most of us are facing the same problem . Instead of looking for profit and sales we are managing the boss ego . It is best to leave such company .

I am lost ??/

aqua65 — Mon, 17 Oct 2011 09:20:30 +0000

I have am lost the past few months . I am totally dissatifies I am not sure what is the real cause . But it seem obvious , I need a change of company to feel re-energized . But how to get a job . ? At my age it is very difficult .